And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee. - Nietsche

here in lies, most of the pebbles i had gathered, when i whiled away abyss-gazing

Raison d’être

(Coz a French title seemed cool)

Dreaming. Over-thinking. Reminiscing. Rambling. Po-tay-to po-tah-to! Whatever it may be, I felt it could be given a structure. This is one such attempt.

The reluctance to make it a blog earlier, probably was due to the following reasons[1].

  1. sharing is caring — As a selfish introvert, I had neither shared nor cared, which is the most plausible explanation.
  2. feedback and comments - constructive feedback is always good - at least thats what I keep telling myself. But my hyper-fragile ego didn’t mature past 3rd grade B section. So it cringes on any kind of feedback, positive or negative. Exactly how salt works on slugs. (no, not a recipe.. empathise here).
  3. sheer laziness, lackadaisical attitude and lethargy

The why

Purpose, as I must say, of this writing, is just to spew out my internal monologues. Hence, the question of how it would benefit you as a reader, is practically beyond me. I tend to have long monologues (as like now). Hence, I asserted, that I should just jot them all somewhere and when I or someone else read it later, a door of light may open. Sometimes its just a drunk driver with super-blinding headlights at the end of the tunnel, I must warn.

The what

Honestly, am clueless as ever n everyone. For now, I could think of some here. Prefix every point with “Rant on “.

  1. spirituality, religion, unicorns and cockroaches,
  2. design - the beauty or the lack of,
  3. love, kajakaja[2] and heart-breaks,
  4. movies, gadgets, songs and games, sometimes books
  5. philosophy

— with generous servings of blatant hypocrisies, outright lies, grammatical errors, pseudoscience and logical fallacies. Typically, everything you’d find in a loving family whatsapp group.

The who

They say nothing bonds people together like shared mutual hatred. For the sake of inclusivity, I have tried to offend people of all races, religions, colours, genders, ethnicities, sexual orientations and physical abilities. So, in case you find that I have not offended enough (is under-offended a word?) of a particular sub-set of people/ideas that you hate, please bear with me and subscribe[3] for updates.

That said, feel free to browse through my pebbles n comment[3].

[1] Honestly, it’s just 1 reason - ref c. However, everything exudes a sense of purpose when presented as meticulously numbered bullet points.
[2] Technical terms are sex, matter, gilma[2]. Medical term is coitus.
[3] Was too lazy to add subscribing or commenting feature. So please check this space after a few weeks yourselves. Kindly assume things have changed after you thought of those comments. May the force be with you!